05-17-2005, 03:36 PM
Well, its 12:30 on Graduation night, i graduated, Jess is out at Project Grad, he won't be back from that for another 5-6 hours. So i thought I'd tell you all my story about me and my gf (not my gf atm, story to be explained). Just figured i'd give you all something to talk about, reflect on, etc. And it's 12:30 and ive got a couple cans of Dr. Pepper to go through(best soda ever).
Heather(real name) and I started dating on March 1st. We dated for a month, things are going great, etc. Sometime during that month, in a spur of the moment thing, I proposed to her, a kinda fucked up proposal, no ring or anything. She said yes, things are happy, etc etc. A week later she freaks out because we've only been dating for a few weeks. I say that's fine, I know what you mean. So we're gf/bf. Sometime after that, don't remember the day, but it was the day that Sin City debuted, I get a text message from her, and walk out of the last half hour of Sin City to txt msg her.
Let me sidetrack a little here. At this point she was talking to another guy named Alex. She was still talking to him while we were dating, but not really doing anything. Alex kept calling her and wanting to do stuff with her, and I being her bf, didn't really like that. So i asked her to tell him that we were dating, etc etc. Well that night, she txt msgs me, acting all pissy because i "dont trust her", etc etc. Well after a long and weird weekend, the truth comes out that she doesn't want to date for now because she's still in love with her ex. She loves me too, or she says she does.
So we've been really good friends for awhile now, I'm waiting for her to get over her ex, and stop loving him, so we can go back to dating. Now, it's at this point that I found out she lied to me and has been hanging out with Alex a bunch. I also find out that they both got drunk and had oral sex. I got pretty pissed at her, but I forgave her since she stopped talking to Alex. I asked her to get rid of him awhile ago, i told her that he was just looking for sex, but she didn't listen to me. So anyway, thats about up to speed for us, we're just friends for now, friend's that kiss and do a lot of stuff together. A little more than regular friend's, not quite bf/gf. We're both deeply in love with each other, can't wait to be with each other. We plan on moving in together sometime during college, probably in a year or two. We've got lots of plans for this summer, and i'm looking forward to it.
Anyway, the thing that bugs me the most is that she'll kiss me, but just barely, I guess i can't expect her to do the same thing that we used to do since we're not bf/gf for the time being. But I live off emotion like that, and she's not giving it out, which is seriously breaking me down. I can't leave this girl, she's just too perfect, but I want things to be back the way they were. Anyone have any suggestions? I'm going crazy over here.
*EDIT*Holy fuckin shit that's long.... :o
Heather(real name) and I started dating on March 1st. We dated for a month, things are going great, etc. Sometime during that month, in a spur of the moment thing, I proposed to her, a kinda fucked up proposal, no ring or anything. She said yes, things are happy, etc etc. A week later she freaks out because we've only been dating for a few weeks. I say that's fine, I know what you mean. So we're gf/bf. Sometime after that, don't remember the day, but it was the day that Sin City debuted, I get a text message from her, and walk out of the last half hour of Sin City to txt msg her.
Let me sidetrack a little here. At this point she was talking to another guy named Alex. She was still talking to him while we were dating, but not really doing anything. Alex kept calling her and wanting to do stuff with her, and I being her bf, didn't really like that. So i asked her to tell him that we were dating, etc etc. Well that night, she txt msgs me, acting all pissy because i "dont trust her", etc etc. Well after a long and weird weekend, the truth comes out that she doesn't want to date for now because she's still in love with her ex. She loves me too, or she says she does.
So we've been really good friends for awhile now, I'm waiting for her to get over her ex, and stop loving him, so we can go back to dating. Now, it's at this point that I found out she lied to me and has been hanging out with Alex a bunch. I also find out that they both got drunk and had oral sex. I got pretty pissed at her, but I forgave her since she stopped talking to Alex. I asked her to get rid of him awhile ago, i told her that he was just looking for sex, but she didn't listen to me. So anyway, thats about up to speed for us, we're just friends for now, friend's that kiss and do a lot of stuff together. A little more than regular friend's, not quite bf/gf. We're both deeply in love with each other, can't wait to be with each other. We plan on moving in together sometime during college, probably in a year or two. We've got lots of plans for this summer, and i'm looking forward to it.
Anyway, the thing that bugs me the most is that she'll kiss me, but just barely, I guess i can't expect her to do the same thing that we used to do since we're not bf/gf for the time being. But I live off emotion like that, and she's not giving it out, which is seriously breaking me down. I can't leave this girl, she's just too perfect, but I want things to be back the way they were. Anyone have any suggestions? I'm going crazy over here.
*EDIT*Holy fuckin shit that's long.... :o